WISHES
An unexpected reach towards me
Causes me to lift my chin
And opens my hurting eyes
My distrust feels a glimpse of hope,
That was thought to be extinct
And my longing comes to conciousness again
"Could she be different
Than those I have known before?"
Is the soul I wait to find
Mythical or real?
Hidden like a unicorn
With magic
In her care,
Her compassion,
Love,
And devotion to others.
And you reached out to me a second time
And my attention was captured
My giving, open self awoke
After a very long dead sleep
And I now want to hear you
And you want me to hear
Your secrets and dreams
Are gifts to me
To be treasured
Like special shells that had been hiding in the sand
No vulnerability you need to feel
You can confide in me
Care will be taken
To not ever hurt your trust
For I know it is as sacred as mine,
And that I understand.
But "You" is fictional;
An example of wishes
That I wait for to exist
In more than poetry
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
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WILD HORSE
Inside of me
I am like a wild horse
Galloping anywhere just to feel my freedom
Racing alongside the quick wind
Untamed and uncontrolled
And wanting to stay that way
Feeling the power and strength
When my hooves strike the ground
My mane has combined with the breeze
And my eyes are wide and spirited
Spiritual and intuitive
I live by the moon and the sun
I am a fragment of the seasons
And there is comfort in my home the earth
For it is safe
And takes care
To keep my mind peaceful
And keep my emotions alive
By the sight of it's beauty.
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
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RAIN GODDESS
When it starts to rain
She starts to bloom
And comes alive, becoming vibrant
She cherishes the rain's beauty
And it's touch on her
Opened palms and upturned face
It's smell,
It's imperfect rythm,
All soothes her spirit and body
Makes her eyes sincere
Like she is in a magic world
And she is welcomed to her home...
And she pulls me in
As I touch the rain drops on her lips
To gesture to the Rain Goddess
To savor her moment together
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
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GOODBYE THE EARTH I HAVE LOVED
Goodbye The Earth
I have loved
Countless things
I will miss
But mostly
Are these things that I write of;
The ways that you have nurtured us
I will miss
The comfort you brought to me
At the times of your evening rainsong
Regardless of my anger or frusteration
And turning it into unimportance
I will miss
How the sight of the moon in the night
Would suddenly capture my stare
Like I had seen a newly found gem
Goodbye to your wind's familiar touch
As it sweeps through my hair and across my skin
And goodbye to how you would soothe me
By your leaves rustling in the treetops
I will miss
Hearing how the birds would gratefully greet the sun's warmth
After a long wait in the chilled night
Reminding me to welcome your mornings
As it is the always unfurling gift
Goodbye to the amazing animals
That are going extinct
The Red Wolf, Blue Whale, Pink River Dolphin
That humans are throwing away
Like they are mere
Compared to money made of paper
And I will miss
When the fall season's leaves were layed down gently
So that if I were to ever feel sullen
With my heading hanging low
I could only see bright colors
As I continued to step ahead
Goodbye to how the sight of your rolling ocean would mesmerize me
And take me away from my broken self
And goodbye to the cherished unique scents of the flowers
As I relaxed in the grass on precious spring days
I will miss
Your swaying flaxen of the fields
That always made me daydream
Of the moments that I wished for
And I will miss
Your stars and the fresh clean air
That you provided me with
Goodbye to The Earth I have loved
For when you die
I die
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
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THE PIONEER CEMETERY
Inbetween two lonely grass farmlands
Up a long dirt road I walked
In the once somber foosteps of my past generations
To a small grove of trees
Where the old cemetery waits
Inviting to me
Is it's serene and quiet space
That I still come back to wander about in
Pondering all the stories
Surrounding each headstone
Where the deepest emotions forever linger
From the time when family once gathered
Like it's the only place that time has stopped
As the headstones stay in their original places
Over a hundred years later
The epitaphs and symbols speak out
Though could only grasp from me a small part
Of the sorrow once left there
And could only ever be felt
So I sit comfortably in the wild grass
And ponder the questions
In this place full of heartfelt expression
The outside world often seems so cold
And I start to feel the breeze come and stir
Moving all the plants differently
Like it's making this place come alive
And I start to understand...
Within the realm of the deepest grief
The most beautiful things are found
Either carved in stone
Or in your spirit
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
****************************************************************************************************************
BEGIN
I need to get back
Back to my beginning
And it's purpose
I need to get back to love
But I've been away for SO long it seems
Like in an illness that's been rankling
So where do I even start?
When I think of love I think of pain
Of past experiences
But really it doesn't mean;
That love has to cause a scar when they leave
Or that I have to keep them close
To love and say goodbye is crucial
It is right when it must happen
And I could do it everyday
Because there are so many opportunities
That I could get back to my purpose
Though I feel that I first should pray
To ask to feel the most important part of God
To feel myself overflowing with love
For everyone
Including strangers
Because with this love it doesn't matter
Nothing matters
It can be done without fear anymore
Even after you have been hurt your whole life
Or been betrayed in the worst way
Love will endlessly open us;
To lessons, treasures, wisdom, YOUR spirit
My spirit
My WHOLE spirit
And the rotten inside of me will become restored
And I can hope that it might melt my hard feelings
That plague me like a viscious cycle
If I just make a point to take the first step
That I had been hesitating
No longer in fear
I can be alive like I used to be
And I can see a twisting path ahead of me
Where I could be led to so many amazing things
That I could NEVER have imagined
If I begin to love again
And now is my time.
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
****************************************************************************************************************
EARTH GODDESS WITH ME
When it is time
For her to reveal her brightest colors
As her sunset casts them across the earth
And her first crescent moon starts to glow
It becomes her secret signal to me
To go to the place that we call "our" own
I am guided
With just enough of her moonlight
As I briskly enter the familiar
Old abandoned park
Wherein the calmness of the countryside
Allows the strong scent of fir trees
And singing crickets to stay
I'm making my way
To our giant weeping willow
Winding and elegantly
It graces what is leftover
Of this special place
The finger-branches are swaying in the cool breeze
And they seem to motion to me
To come closer
To under it's canopy
As I wait for her to be seen
She starts to compose music using her dancing, swirling leaves
While the smell of her perfume is the moist night air of fall
And I can feel the goodness in her spirit surrounding me
With comfort and love
As she sighs in the wind in my ear
I feel her hand on my shoulder
And I turn
To see her gentle face
So sincere, and natural
Her smile...
It brings me the same delight as wildflowers
And when she catches me now lacking in words
I sink into her green-blue eyes that are as deep as the ocean
Only on these nights
She takes human form
For me
She loves
In this world where we could never connect with others
We are correlating
Feeling like a fish swimming for the first time
We are two ageless spirits that do not know of time
And living with senses that are heightened and intuitive
It seems like I've known her forever
Even though it's only been since may
The first time she noticed me
Was in the park
And I was devistated
While sitting on a stump
Where her cut trees that were taken
Had left the space depleted and pitiful
With my tears falling to her floor
In a dream that night she came
In images and symbols
A gentle voice that felt uncommonly safe
Someone that I felt I COULD put my trust in
At night her spirit becomes vivacious
And I understand her in so many ways
There are no judgments
There can be none
Our lives had been born beautiful
But were made crooked
Both of us have been beaten down
Not appreciated
Pollution into our innocence
At the first crescent moon
I am there for her
And at her dawn
When she feels it become exceptionally beautiful
That is at the time she is waking next to me
I will age just like all of creation
As she watches all the years go by
And when I become old
And my phase of death has passed
And I am buried
I will go back to the earth
And go back to her
The earth goddess in love
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
****************************************************************************************************************
This is about my dog and I...
KINDRED SPIRITS
Kiddo and I:
Are both easy going
Gentle
Mellow
Sensitive
Easily made happy
Patient
Quiet
Loving
We both like to;
Cuddle
Swim
Go for hikes
Walk at the same pace
Go for rides in the car
Lay in the grass
We both want to be accepted
Want people to see us for who we are
Were both rejected by those we loved
Now together
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
An unexpected reach towards me
Causes me to lift my chin
And opens my hurting eyes
My distrust feels a glimpse of hope,
That was thought to be extinct
And my longing comes to conciousness again
"Could she be different
Than those I have known before?"
Is the soul I wait to find
Mythical or real?
Hidden like a unicorn
With magic
In her care,
Her compassion,
Love,
And devotion to others.
And you reached out to me a second time
And my attention was captured
My giving, open self awoke
After a very long dead sleep
And I now want to hear you
And you want me to hear
Your secrets and dreams
Are gifts to me
To be treasured
Like special shells that had been hiding in the sand
No vulnerability you need to feel
You can confide in me
Care will be taken
To not ever hurt your trust
For I know it is as sacred as mine,
And that I understand.
But "You" is fictional;
An example of wishes
That I wait for to exist
In more than poetry
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
****************************************************************************************************************
WILD HORSE
Inside of me
I am like a wild horse
Galloping anywhere just to feel my freedom
Racing alongside the quick wind
Untamed and uncontrolled
And wanting to stay that way
Feeling the power and strength
When my hooves strike the ground
My mane has combined with the breeze
And my eyes are wide and spirited
Spiritual and intuitive
I live by the moon and the sun
I am a fragment of the seasons
And there is comfort in my home the earth
For it is safe
And takes care
To keep my mind peaceful
And keep my emotions alive
By the sight of it's beauty.
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
***************************************************************************************************************
RAIN GODDESS
When it starts to rain
She starts to bloom
And comes alive, becoming vibrant
She cherishes the rain's beauty
And it's touch on her
Opened palms and upturned face
It's smell,
It's imperfect rythm,
All soothes her spirit and body
Makes her eyes sincere
Like she is in a magic world
And she is welcomed to her home...
And she pulls me in
As I touch the rain drops on her lips
To gesture to the Rain Goddess
To savor her moment together
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
****************************************************************************************************************
GOODBYE THE EARTH I HAVE LOVED
Goodbye The Earth
I have loved
Countless things
I will miss
But mostly
Are these things that I write of;
The ways that you have nurtured us
I will miss
The comfort you brought to me
At the times of your evening rainsong
Regardless of my anger or frusteration
And turning it into unimportance
I will miss
How the sight of the moon in the night
Would suddenly capture my stare
Like I had seen a newly found gem
Goodbye to your wind's familiar touch
As it sweeps through my hair and across my skin
And goodbye to how you would soothe me
By your leaves rustling in the treetops
I will miss
Hearing how the birds would gratefully greet the sun's warmth
After a long wait in the chilled night
Reminding me to welcome your mornings
As it is the always unfurling gift
Goodbye to the amazing animals
That are going extinct
The Red Wolf, Blue Whale, Pink River Dolphin
That humans are throwing away
Like they are mere
Compared to money made of paper
And I will miss
When the fall season's leaves were layed down gently
So that if I were to ever feel sullen
With my heading hanging low
I could only see bright colors
As I continued to step ahead
Goodbye to how the sight of your rolling ocean would mesmerize me
And take me away from my broken self
And goodbye to the cherished unique scents of the flowers
As I relaxed in the grass on precious spring days
I will miss
Your swaying flaxen of the fields
That always made me daydream
Of the moments that I wished for
And I will miss
Your stars and the fresh clean air
That you provided me with
Goodbye to The Earth I have loved
For when you die
I die
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
****************************************************************************************************************
THE PIONEER CEMETERY
Inbetween two lonely grass farmlands
Up a long dirt road I walked
In the once somber foosteps of my past generations
To a small grove of trees
Where the old cemetery waits
Inviting to me
Is it's serene and quiet space
That I still come back to wander about in
Pondering all the stories
Surrounding each headstone
Where the deepest emotions forever linger
From the time when family once gathered
Like it's the only place that time has stopped
As the headstones stay in their original places
Over a hundred years later
The epitaphs and symbols speak out
Though could only grasp from me a small part
Of the sorrow once left there
And could only ever be felt
So I sit comfortably in the wild grass
And ponder the questions
In this place full of heartfelt expression
The outside world often seems so cold
And I start to feel the breeze come and stir
Moving all the plants differently
Like it's making this place come alive
And I start to understand...
Within the realm of the deepest grief
The most beautiful things are found
Either carved in stone
Or in your spirit
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
****************************************************************************************************************
BEGIN
I need to get back
Back to my beginning
And it's purpose
I need to get back to love
But I've been away for SO long it seems
Like in an illness that's been rankling
So where do I even start?
When I think of love I think of pain
Of past experiences
But really it doesn't mean;
That love has to cause a scar when they leave
Or that I have to keep them close
To love and say goodbye is crucial
It is right when it must happen
And I could do it everyday
Because there are so many opportunities
That I could get back to my purpose
Though I feel that I first should pray
To ask to feel the most important part of God
To feel myself overflowing with love
For everyone
Including strangers
Because with this love it doesn't matter
Nothing matters
It can be done without fear anymore
Even after you have been hurt your whole life
Or been betrayed in the worst way
Love will endlessly open us;
To lessons, treasures, wisdom, YOUR spirit
My spirit
My WHOLE spirit
And the rotten inside of me will become restored
And I can hope that it might melt my hard feelings
That plague me like a viscious cycle
If I just make a point to take the first step
That I had been hesitating
No longer in fear
I can be alive like I used to be
And I can see a twisting path ahead of me
Where I could be led to so many amazing things
That I could NEVER have imagined
If I begin to love again
And now is my time.
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
****************************************************************************************************************
EARTH GODDESS WITH ME
When it is time
For her to reveal her brightest colors
As her sunset casts them across the earth
And her first crescent moon starts to glow
It becomes her secret signal to me
To go to the place that we call "our" own
I am guided
With just enough of her moonlight
As I briskly enter the familiar
Old abandoned park
Wherein the calmness of the countryside
Allows the strong scent of fir trees
And singing crickets to stay
I'm making my way
To our giant weeping willow
Winding and elegantly
It graces what is leftover
Of this special place
The finger-branches are swaying in the cool breeze
And they seem to motion to me
To come closer
To under it's canopy
As I wait for her to be seen
She starts to compose music using her dancing, swirling leaves
While the smell of her perfume is the moist night air of fall
And I can feel the goodness in her spirit surrounding me
With comfort and love
As she sighs in the wind in my ear
I feel her hand on my shoulder
And I turn
To see her gentle face
So sincere, and natural
Her smile...
It brings me the same delight as wildflowers
And when she catches me now lacking in words
I sink into her green-blue eyes that are as deep as the ocean
Only on these nights
She takes human form
For me
She loves
In this world where we could never connect with others
We are correlating
Feeling like a fish swimming for the first time
We are two ageless spirits that do not know of time
And living with senses that are heightened and intuitive
It seems like I've known her forever
Even though it's only been since may
The first time she noticed me
Was in the park
And I was devistated
While sitting on a stump
Where her cut trees that were taken
Had left the space depleted and pitiful
With my tears falling to her floor
In a dream that night she came
In images and symbols
A gentle voice that felt uncommonly safe
Someone that I felt I COULD put my trust in
At night her spirit becomes vivacious
And I understand her in so many ways
There are no judgments
There can be none
Our lives had been born beautiful
But were made crooked
Both of us have been beaten down
Not appreciated
Pollution into our innocence
At the first crescent moon
I am there for her
And at her dawn
When she feels it become exceptionally beautiful
That is at the time she is waking next to me
I will age just like all of creation
As she watches all the years go by
And when I become old
And my phase of death has passed
And I am buried
I will go back to the earth
And go back to her
The earth goddess in love
(c)2010 Molly Nicole
****************************************************************************************************************
This is about my dog and I...
KINDRED SPIRITS
Kiddo and I:
Are both easy going
Gentle
Mellow
Sensitive
Easily made happy
Patient
Quiet
Loving
We both like to;
Cuddle
Swim
Go for hikes
Walk at the same pace
Go for rides in the car
Lay in the grass
We both want to be accepted
Want people to see us for who we are
Were both rejected by those we loved
Now together
(c)2010 Molly Nicole